Tonight as I tucked in the big boys I sat on the edge of their bed for a few extra minutes. They both requested back scratches and a favorite song. While the music quietly played in the background and the room became still, Joseph rolled over and let out a big sigh. "Mom, I miss school. I miss my friends and I am sad that I'm going to miss the end of the year hot dog party where the fire truck comes and sprays us." Hyrum quickly added, "Yeah, I miss my friends and the school assemblies and the games we play and my teacher....." Suddenly, all of the emotion that I had been bravely hanging onto for the past fifty plus days came to the surface and my eyes welled up with tears. Through those tears I told them how I was sad too, and that it was okay to be sad about all of the fun things we miss and were so looking forward to. Then I took a deep breath and tried to control myself as I saw their eyes begin to well up too. It made my mamma heart hurt. Hyrum said most of the time he feels lucky to be with family every day, but sometimes he misses things. We all hugged and cried together and then made plans for an epic end of the year BBQ complete with Jumbo Freezies and all of their favorite things. I know it can never replace the real thing, but it helped take away some of the sadness. We feel very fortunate and grateful that we have each other during this crazy time, but it's still okay to feel sad sometimes and I wanted them to know that.
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