Grass Between the Toes

Yesterday was a terrible, rotten, no good day. It started out with Joseph chucking a bottle of BBQ sauce from the shopping cart resulting in a "clean up in aisle two". The older two were so amazed by it that they squatted nearby and asked if they could watch it until someone came to clean it up. I never knew BBQ sauce could be so interesting! The rest of the day was filled with melt downs and all kinds of tantrums imaginable. I bit the bullet and took them to the park hoping some sunshine and fresh air would help, but we had a potty accident soon after arriving and a second little who needed to use the potty even though I reminded him ten times before leaving the house. Daddy was at a board meeting which meant that I had to do bed time solo. I sat down after everyone was asleep and let out a sigh of relief. One more Monday down, a bajillion more to go! 

One thing I love about Motherhood is the tiny moments of joy that can be found amidst the chaos if we're looking for them. The temperature reached well into double digits today and the littles were beyond excited to spend the afternoon in their bare feet in the backyard. At one point in the afternoon I was upstairs rocking Finley to sleep in my arms and I walked over to the window in my bedroom with him to check on the kids. Through the opened window I could feel the fresh breeze and hear their sweet conversations. When I realized they were drawing all over the trampoline with chalk I bit my tongue and asked myself, "Is it hurting anyone?" The answer was clearly no, so I stood in silence and let it be. 

In that moment my heart was filled with so much love and joy for these three little people. Even though they fight and argue their relationship runs deep. I love watching them be kind, say sorry without me asking, and defend each other with a fierce love. It's moments like these that help me brush off all the bad and remind me that I have good kids, and that I need to stop being so hard on myself.

Oh how I love those barefeet, the grass between my toes, and the Summer sun! Children really do bring so much joy to our little home!