I think I may have actually fixed our computer. We've been going without it for almost two months now. I've been using my iPad for so long that it's hard for me not to want to reach out and touch the computer screen when I want to do something. It's kind of like when you start driving an automatic after driving a standard for so long and your foot almost goes through the floor when you reach for the clutch.
I have spent an entire week fighting a really bad cough. It's been hard to sleep at night so I've been catching a few winks with the kids in the afternoon. Although I've been sick, my sense of humor is luckily still in tact. The kids have been cracking me up lately. The other night I was so looking forward to the much needed 9:00pm bedtime. When I snuck up stairs to nurse Joe for one last time before bed I had to smile. I was sitting in the green chair watching Camilla, still awake in her dimly lit room. I watched the dark outline of her body as she organized and reorganized her teddies across the head of her bed. Joseph decided sleep wasn't for him and I watched my early bedtime come and go. Finally close to 11:00pm, I snuck into our bedroom and located my pjs on my bed. When I tried to slip into my pj pants I realized they were sized for a five year old. During nap time earlier that day Camilla had pulled and tied the strings so tightly in that twisty way she ties things that it took me almost five minutes to undo them. All I could do was laugh, with a hint of frustration.
Today I got a kick out of watching Hyrum at lunch, mimicking everything his sister would say or ask. One of the times was especially cute. With his elbows on the table he rested his chin on his chubby hand, looked up at me with his big blue eyes and said, "that be great, Mom?"
Joseph learned a new trick from his Daddy the other night and its also adorable. He likes to open his mouth nice and big and growl when the rest of us are talking, just to be sure he gets his ten cents in. Today he growled up a storm in the back seat while we were driving down Whyte. He had all of us laughing pretty hard.
I found myself feeling a little bummed today as I reflected on this last year. I feel as though we were just making party plans for Hyrum's first birthday and now all of the sudden we're thinking about his second birthday. What did I even do for a whole year? When I look back I feel as though I haven't accomplished much. I haven't learned a great new skill, played any sports, taken up running again, or greatly expounded my knowledge of the Gospel. I think I need to start setting goals. I'm the kind of person who likes to measure success. I loved school because my grades told me how well I was doing. It's hard to measure success as a mother day in and day out. Just as the laundry gets finished more dirty clothes fill up the basket. Just when the dishes get finished, someone dirties another dish. It can be challenging doing the same things day in and day out.
With the computer being temporarily fixed I found myself looking through old pictures and reminiscing. That's the one thing I've missed the most is my photo library. I get so much joy out of being able to look back on old pictures and memories. Although I felt as though I hadn't accomplished anything for myself, looking at the pictures reminded me about all of the things we've accomplished and done as a family. I really do get my greatest fulfilment and joy out of being a mother. I have an amazing job and some pretty cute little people to work with each day! And even if my biggest accomplishment this year was learning how to grocery shop with three littles in tow, I am doing an important work.
I have spent an entire week fighting a really bad cough. It's been hard to sleep at night so I've been catching a few winks with the kids in the afternoon. Although I've been sick, my sense of humor is luckily still in tact. The kids have been cracking me up lately. The other night I was so looking forward to the much needed 9:00pm bedtime. When I snuck up stairs to nurse Joe for one last time before bed I had to smile. I was sitting in the green chair watching Camilla, still awake in her dimly lit room. I watched the dark outline of her body as she organized and reorganized her teddies across the head of her bed. Joseph decided sleep wasn't for him and I watched my early bedtime come and go. Finally close to 11:00pm, I snuck into our bedroom and located my pjs on my bed. When I tried to slip into my pj pants I realized they were sized for a five year old. During nap time earlier that day Camilla had pulled and tied the strings so tightly in that twisty way she ties things that it took me almost five minutes to undo them. All I could do was laugh, with a hint of frustration.
Today I got a kick out of watching Hyrum at lunch, mimicking everything his sister would say or ask. One of the times was especially cute. With his elbows on the table he rested his chin on his chubby hand, looked up at me with his big blue eyes and said, "that be great, Mom?"
Joseph learned a new trick from his Daddy the other night and its also adorable. He likes to open his mouth nice and big and growl when the rest of us are talking, just to be sure he gets his ten cents in. Today he growled up a storm in the back seat while we were driving down Whyte. He had all of us laughing pretty hard.
I found myself feeling a little bummed today as I reflected on this last year. I feel as though we were just making party plans for Hyrum's first birthday and now all of the sudden we're thinking about his second birthday. What did I even do for a whole year? When I look back I feel as though I haven't accomplished much. I haven't learned a great new skill, played any sports, taken up running again, or greatly expounded my knowledge of the Gospel. I think I need to start setting goals. I'm the kind of person who likes to measure success. I loved school because my grades told me how well I was doing. It's hard to measure success as a mother day in and day out. Just as the laundry gets finished more dirty clothes fill up the basket. Just when the dishes get finished, someone dirties another dish. It can be challenging doing the same things day in and day out.
With the computer being temporarily fixed I found myself looking through old pictures and reminiscing. That's the one thing I've missed the most is my photo library. I get so much joy out of being able to look back on old pictures and memories. Although I felt as though I hadn't accomplished anything for myself, looking at the pictures reminded me about all of the things we've accomplished and done as a family. I really do get my greatest fulfilment and joy out of being a mother. I have an amazing job and some pretty cute little people to work with each day! And even if my biggest accomplishment this year was learning how to grocery shop with three littles in tow, I am doing an important work.
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