A Time to Reflect

I was in my kitchen last night tidying up before bed and making some toast when I noticed an orange glow coming in the window. I went to the front door and saw the most vivid colors of orange and pink that I've seen in a long time. The sun was just setting and casting a glow on everything it touched. The wet pavement made the perfect landing for the sun's rays. I stood on my front porch listening to the rain trickling down. It was beautiful, and breath taking. A view that would stimulate all of your senses at once. I had to take a picture. I never wanted to forget the view from my front door.

Yesterday was one of the hardest days that I've had in a while. Camilla got out of bed a zillion times when I tried to put her down for her nap. It took an hour and a half to finally get her to stay in her bed. After that hour and a half I felt like the worst mother in the world. I lost it after about the 10th time carrying her up the stairs and putting her back in her bed. We both shed a few tears, hers out of sadness and mine out of frustration. I wish I could be the calm mother that never raises her voice. I wish I could keep our house in order whilst finding time to play all day with the children. I wish I had more patience. All in all, I was feeling pretty bummed last night. When I went to put the camera away in the office, I glanced out the balcony door and noticed a rainbow. I called Mr. Stannix in to share in the moment with me. Together we looked out the window at the rainbow, so delicately placed in the glowing sky. 

To me, rainbows mean a fresh start. I was looking forward to waking up today, and having a fresh start. I was also hoping that Camilla would make her way into our room for a morning snuggle so that I could get my good morning hug and giggle with her in bed. Hyrum woke up and found his voice. He was screaming and cooing while Daddy was in the shower this morning. Soon, his big sister made it into our room and greeted us with an enthusiastic "Good Morning!". It is a good morning, and I hope my day will be just as good.