Can't wait, Can't wait!

Today has been a slow day so far.  I spent the morning playing with Camilla and talking on the phone with a really good friend (for a whole hour).  Yesterday when I went to Wal-Mart, I saw these super cute candy buckets and picked one up for Camilla for Halloween! The first thing she did with it in the store was say "HAT" and put it on her head.  She's been wearing it around the house ever since.  I also caved and bought some Halloween candy.  It all looked so good.  My mouth loved the taste, but my tummy didn't so much love it.

Camilla found a balloon today and was bouncing around on it.  I'm just waiting for her to pop it.  I'm not a fan of the sounds of popping balloons.  It's funny to watch her though.  She's been having fun climbing, bouncing and exploring the house.  I'm getting very very excited for Halloween, and VERY excited for Christmas! The weather just seems to be getting warmer and warmer.  No snow for a while (which is okay).  This afternoon I think we may go out and dig up the last row of carrots and enjoy the blue sky and sunshine while we can. 

Daddy has been very busy with school and studying and has a busy few weeks ahead of him.  We miss him when he's gone all day, but it's nice that when he's home, he's home and all ours.  He's been working hard, and we really appreciate it!

Yesterday we had a very busy day.  I made home made bagels, banana muffins, cleaned up a lot of the house, went grocery shopping, had my brother over for dinner, and went to bed early.  I figure, when I feel good I should get as much done as I can, but sometimes I over do it.  Naps are a life saver.  Camilla was so funny when we went shopping.  She chatted with everyone and tried to share our groceries.  She pointed and chatted with the check out lady and made everyone in line laugh.  She's such a little character.  I'm enjoying her independence and fun loving attitude.  Her newest thing however is to pull at my pants or push my legs away from the sink when I'm busy.  Pretty much anything to get my attention.  She does like to play and get hugs often during the day.  I'm glad I get to enjoy it while I can.  I've come to the realization that I have unreasonable expectations of myself as a mother.  I want to be this "super mom" or something, but haven't been able to meet my own expectations lately.  I always feel guilty laying on the couch in the morning while Camilla watches her cartoons.  I have so many things to get done, but can never get them all done.  I've just come to the realization that if the house is a little messy, it's okay, or if the dishes aren't all done all the time, it's okay.  Luckily, I have a very understanding husband who is willing to grab McDonalds if dinner isn't made up, or do my dishes when he gets home from a long day.  I just hope that one day, I'll be able to live up to the expectations that I have of myself.  I'm just learning to go with the flow, and enjoy the extra time with Camilla instead of trying to get everything done all the time.  Sure, the house has suffered a little, but I have a happy girl.  Anyways, I don't know how to really explain it, I've just felt very inadequate as a mother lately.  I just think it's a very important "job" and I value it so much that I want to do my best.  Hopefully some day I can be as good as my own mother.  She's definitely a super mom.  As for now, I just keep being the best I can be.