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Wednesday, January 10, 2018

Little Things

The month is moving forward, time keeps ticking on. Though my body is tired from the late nights and little boys who refuse to sleep, I feel renewed with the new year as I strive to cherish my littles and count my blessings. For the last six years we've always had a new baby and a busy toddler. Having so many littles relatively close in age has come with it's fair share of joys and challenges, but lately I've been enjoying finding myself again as I emerge from the piles of diapers and laundry that have consumed me for the last couple of years. I have been able to really savor my time with Oliver as he learns and grows. He is at such a fun stage!  In an effort to preserve a little snapshot of our life right now, I've been jotting down little moments that happen throughout each day to remember for later. 

The mornings are frigid and cold leaving us wishing that we could snuggle in our beds. Reese jumps on everyone's bed first thing, tail wagging, tongue licking. After she's said 'hello' to everyone, she slides across the hardwood excitedly and leaps into her bed in the kitchen where she watches the hustle and bustle of the morning routine. I turn up the heat and the littles all grab blankets and gather on the vent to warm up. Ollie tugs on the puppy bed and the two of them play at my feet while I make breakfast and pack lunches.

Hyrum gives me his morning hug and I notice he's outgrown his jeans by at least an inch and they have holes in both knees. I make a mental note to pick him up a few new pairs this week. 

Ollie giggles from his booster at the table as he tries to spoon his porridge into his mouth. He scrunches his nose and makes funny faces at the kids leaving us all laughing so hard our tummies ache. He meets our grins with a squeal of a giggle that bubbles up from the very bottom of his adorable, round belly.  I clear his bowl and kiss his sticky face because those cheeks of his are just to die for right now. It's a good thing he's cute though because he is also kind of a drama king. He has mastered the floor dive and uses it often when life seems unfair or he doesn't get what he wants. 

The rest of our morning is filled with play time, school work, snacks and washing sticky toddler hands under a tap of warm water. The two little boys go for a nap shortly after lunch, leaving Joe on his own to play. He is the middle child and I've recently discovered that he is really not used to playing on his own. When I turn off the TV and put away the electronics, he's not sure what to do with himself. We usually fill in that time with a game of checkers, war, uno or some baking. 

When Finley wakes us he likes to pretend he's mute. Everything is done with pointing, nodding and guess work. He tugs at my shirt sleeve to get my attention and then acts out what he wants to eat or do. He says "I love you" a thousand times a day and gives the tightest squeezy hugs and the best kisses. He is always full of affection and love. 

When the kids get home from school they crowd around the little table in the kitchen, playing a huge game of war with the cards. It's exciting to see them getting along so well, but a part of me aches at the sight because it means they are growing up! They are so lucky to have each other and I love that they get along most of the time. 

Some of my favorite moments of the day are when we are all crowded around the kitchen counter making up a batch of cookies. The kitchen feels cozy and warm. The children chatter and ramble on loudly. There is poking, fighting, hugs, goofing off. The memories we make together in the kitchen are simply the best. 

If the weather is warm the big kids run up the street to grab some friends and head to the hill for sledding. They are getting so independent, it's fun to see. 

We are back in swimming lessons and I managed to get all four kids into lessons around the same time. We end up being at the pool for just over an hour start to finish. Finley is loving his first unparented session. Joe and Hyrum are in the same class just because it works better with the timing of lessons. Camilla is in level three this time around and told me that she has to swim really far! 

When we get home my heart swells as I watch Hyrum unzip his baby brothers coat. Next, he plops Ollie between his legs on the floor, bends his body close and reaches his long, growing arms around to tug off Ollie's boots. When he's finished he ruffles Ollie's hair with a, "there ya go, buddy."

I spend most of my afternoons trying to avoid the constant rain of nerf gun bullets. They stick to my windows and bounce off my walls as I make dinner. The boys run around loudly. It's complete mayhem. I end up stepping in sticky remnants of a strawberry multigrain bar as I wipe down the table. I hop on one foot over to the kitchen sink to wash it off and am joined a few seconds later by a little boy who's been crawling all over the floor and also needs the sticky wiped from his foot. 

After dinner (and asking them to eat their dinner over and over), they get to work on their jobs. I made up a new chore wheel the other day and so far it seems to be doing the trick. Listening to the clanging of dishes as Hyrum rinses and loads and the hum of little workers makes my heart happy. Camilla hangs out in the nursery with a freshly bathed Oliver while I fold the last load of laundry on the boys bed. She is such a responsible little eight year old and so helpful! The giggles escape under the door and bring a smile to my face. 

We all gather for night prayers to finish off the day. Daddy asks someone to say it and Finley protests, "No peaaaaaaaaaar!" (No fair). While we listen to the prayer, Ollie runs around the circle tackling unsuspecting siblings who have their arms folded and heads bowed. The dog joins in on the game and barks and pounces around while the rest of us try to stay reverent.

The days are full and tiring, but the little arms around my neck, the chubby toddler hand wrapped around my finger, and the sloppy kisses make it all worth it! 

Tuesday, January 9, 2018

Simple Pleasures

When the wind is blowing, the snowflakes are flying, and the trees are dancing, the little boys tuck in under warm handmade quilts for an afternoon nap. Mamma relishes in the quiet by curling up beneath a crochet project and adding row after row. Working with my hands brings me such joy and stillness that can't be achieved any other way.

 
"I believe the nicest and sweetest days are not those on which anything very splendid or wonderful or exciting happens, but those that bring simple little pleasures, following one another softly, like pearls slipping off a string." ~L.M Montomery

Monday, January 8, 2018

Resolutions

The start of a new year often brings about an air of change and a deeper desire to do better.  Lately I've found myself pondering the hopes of my heart and my vision for the new year. As an avid journal writer, goal setting and reflection have always been an important part of my life. Without them there would be no purpose to each day. If you've already fallen off the bandwagon this month, hopefully you have a dear friend like mine to give you some encouragement and help you see that each day is a new opportunity to be better than the last.

After a lot of thought I've decided that my "word" for 2018 is going to be time. I love this word because it encompasses so many different aspects of my life that I want to be better at. I want more time to be still, more time to read (alone, with the kids, and with Mike), more time to learn new things, more time to ponder. I crave more time to write and journal and collect my thoughts. I will be making more time to love and show it through service and extra snuggles with the littles. I want more time to stand in a sun-lit window and warm my soul. I long for more time to enjoy nature. I need more time unplugged from the constant noise of the world. Sometimes life can feel so rushed, and busy, and chaotic... And it's become so normal for it to be this way. This year I just want to slow things down a little and make time for important and meaningful things. I really want to relish in this season of life before these kids grow up too much more and head off on new adventures of their own.

I'm excited to really watch how I spend my hours each day this year. I've already found myself thinking is this a productive and uplifting way to spend your time? I've already implemented some small changes and I feel so much better about life after just this last week. For starters (don't laugh) I let Mike pick my facebook password which means that I am only able to log in and scroll in the evenings most of the time. I've found social media to be a huge time waster for me this last year and I really want to change that! The funny part is that I really don't miss it. I get a whole lot more done during the day and I'm not as snappy with the kids because I'm more focused. So if you want to get in touch I'll be (hopefully) keeping up with the blog and hanging out over on instagram. Ha! I'm also trying really hard to get up before the kids to make that time in the morning a little bit more meaningful either by studying my scriptures (if there's time) or just being a happier mommy.

Last week I woke up to a text from a friend. She sent me a quote that has been super thought provoking over the past few days.

"If I were Satan...I would keep women so distraught and distracted that they would never find calming strength and serenity...catching them in the crunch of trying to be superhuman instead of realistically striving to reach their individual purpose and unique God-given potential. We must have the courage to be imperfect."
~Patricia Holland

This year I'm looking forward to taking time, slowing down, and finding that calming strength and serenity that's offered to us each day. Here's to a year filled with novels to be devoured, blankets to be crocheted, kids to wrap my arms around, relationships to be strengthened, and service to be given. 

Sunday, January 7, 2018

Happy Sabbath

We woke to a beautiful blue sky morning! There was lots of changes at church today with new teachers and kids moving up to new classes. Finley is officially a Sunbeam and gets to go to primary with his older siblings! I had to snap a picture of them all to document it because they all woke up looking older. Hyrum is taller than his big sister now! Joe was being goofy and kept making funny faces instead of giving me a smile. He's such a character that boy. Ollie just wanted to run away and play. Outside is his favorite place to be. By some miracle I got a quick shot of all of them looking at the camera! It's so funny seeing their big personalities shine through in the picture. Our Sabbath was wonderful and I so enjoyed watching Finley soaking in the Primary experience. His big brother took such great care of him and I loved seeing Hyrum standing next to him with his strong arms around Fin's shoulders to help him be brave. Happy Sabbath!


Wednesday, January 3, 2018

Costco

We recently renewed our Costco card after a long stint of being without one. Since then I think I've been twice. I got all ambitious today and decided to take all FIVE kids to Costco. It was chaos right from the get-go. When we pulled up someone else was getting out of their truck beside us just as I opened the van door for everyone to pile out. He decided to wait in his truck until we were all out which meant I had to make everyone hustle. I turned around to thank the kind soul for waiting only to discover that I knew him from church! The kids skipped across the muddy, puddled parking lot and into the front doors. The dear man ended up having to wait once again as I loaded everyone into or onto the cart and fumbled around my wallet for my costco card. I waved him by because I knew we'd be a while! 

With Ollie sitting in the seat, Fin standing on the end and the boys hopping on and off the sides, we made our way to the baking section to start our grand tour. "Can we have cookies?" they ask. "No, we're getting hot dogs at the end remember?" We made our way around the busy aisles with our extra large and extra full cart. They spotted a sample table just as I rounded the aisle to the meat section. "But MOM! SAMPLES!" they all protest. "Yes, I'll turn around as soon as I grab what I need from this aisle." We lucked into trying a bunch of different things as we weaved our way up and down the aisles. Mango juice, yogurt, popcorn.... The samples really make the trip to Costco just a tiny bit more bearable. 

As we made our way to the checkout we were greeted by the longest lines I've ever seen. All of the cashiers were on and each had at least ten people in line. We pulled into the shortest one we could find and waited....and waited. Finley started hanging off the end of the cart almost bumping into the sweet lady in front of us. When Joe wasn't pushing everyone's buttons he was folding himself in half to fit underneath the cart. Before long the baby was screaming and I started a game of "pat-a-cake" to keep him relatively quiet. Finley started making dinosaur noises from the end of the cart and Hyrum kept getting in everyone else's space and adding to the nose. After all of the fighting, poking, yelling, and baby screaming we finally made it through the checkout. 

I had promised the kids we would grab some hot dogs on our way out for Dinner, since Daddy was working late.  One look at the hot dog line-up and I was kicking myself for even mentioning it. I took Ollie out of the cart since those have to stay out of the line. Camilla and Fin hung out next to it to keep an eye on things. Hyrum stood nicely next me in line while Ollie wailed on my hip. Joe ran back and forth giggling like a mad man making me regret my decision even more. 

We managed to find an empty table to cram into and eat. With the baby still on my hip I managed to get ketchup and mustard on every hot dog and bring them drinks. Just as I was about to stuff my face with another bite so as not to prolong our stay, a friend walked over to say hi. Things finished off relatively smoothly considering how busy it was. After I finished loading groceries and kids into the van I shut my door and let out a deep breath of relief. I probably won't be back for another couple of months (or at least until I forget about this visit). 

I finished off my day enjoying a cup of tea with a hint of peanut butter (because sometimes I use the same knife when I make PB&honey sandwiches). 

Tuesday, January 2, 2018

Exhausted

This is exactly how I'm feeling after the Holidays....

Monday, January 1, 2018

First Hair Cut

Our new years day wasn't overly exciting. It was cold, and we all just wanted to snuggle up and relax. In the late morning I finally decided that it was time to cut Ollie's hair. I trimmed the back and a little bit around the ears. I am going to miss his little curls when his hair is wet. He looks so grown up now! 





Sunday, December 31, 2017

Year in Review

Our family has had another wonderful year. It's been filled with baby snuggles, crafting, baking, playing, swimming, milestones, hiking, adventuring, sand between our toes, fresh sea air, bonding, music, birthdays, heartache, love, joy and reflection. We have made so many wonderful memories together and overcome trials and hardships. We have grown and stretched and come out better for it at years end.

We are looking forward to 2018 and the memories we will share! 
Farewell 2017, it's been a slice!

Saturday, December 30, 2017

Fin's Tractor

Today we took the kids to the store to spend their Christmas money. Each of them wandered around the toy aisles in search of the perfect thing that was within their budget. I followed Finley as he checked out monster trucks, pushed buttons on fire engines, and investigated the cars. The older three grabbed our attention for a few minutes and as we were deciding what they should get I looked up to see Finley walk out from four aisles over awkwardly carrying a box half his size with a smile from ear to ear. "I'm getting a tractor," he said decidedly. I couldn't help but smile at how darn cute the whole thing was. We all followed him to the shelf where he got it from to double check the price and when it was officially okayed he heaved the heavy box up and over the edge of the cart. He hung onto the cart and patiently waited for the rest of the kids to pick their toys and beamed as we went through the checkout. His tractor was a prized toy all afternoon and he never let it out of his sight. It was parked right under his chair at dinner time, just to be on the safe side. I love seeing his sweet personality showing more and more each day!

Friday, December 29, 2017

Gathering

Ollie had a successful first night in his toddler bed! He woke twice, but went back to sleep and slept until after 8:00am. When I didn't hear him wake, I slowly opened his door to find him grinning in the middle of his room. He was so happy!

It's so nice to be out of school for a little while, even if the weather refuses to cooperate. We've been enjoying the slow paced mornings, break from routine, and catching up on sleep! This morning everyone woke up happy. I was greeted with an arm full of hugs and "I love you's". 

Hyrum read a book at the table while Ollie fed himself a bowl of porridge. A lot of it ended up down the front of his jammies, but he was so happy to feed himself. 

While I tidied the upstairs bedroom a few of the kids gathered around Oliver's new bed and listened to Camilla read stories.  They giggled at her goofy voices and ate up every minute of it. Watching them brought me so much joy. 

At naptime I spent two hours sitting in the hall with a book waiting for Oliver to fall asleep. He got out of bed over a dozen times and refused to give in! After shushing the kids and sending them downstairs over and over again, my dear girl took one look at my face and came back a few minutes later with a stuffy behind her back. "Can I try, mamma?" She walked into that room and had him asleep in 60 seconds flat. She told me the secret to her success was to rub his leg gently until he falls asleep. I told her I'd give that a try next time. Everyone needs a Camilla!