I can't believe we are half way through July already! I'm not sure how it's possible to dream of fall decor and a cinnamon/clove scented home and at the same time still mourn the quick passing of Summer. But that's where I'm at right now. Looking forward to the next season while feeling a tiny bit sad about how fast this Summer is going. As with every Summer, I started out with grand ideas and big plans that have kind of gotten lost along the way. Sometimes I can get pretty uptight and stressed when things don't go according to plan, but having five littles has (mostly) helped change that!

This morning everyone woke up super cranky. There was more fighting and poking than I'd like to admit and I couldn't help but thinking that this is not how Summer is supposed to go! Everyone was tired and touchy and easily set off and after the tenth fight erupted I spontaneously told everyone to get dressed and load up in the van. I had been eyeing the canola fields for a few weeks now and I knew a slow drive on some back country roads would ease the tension and give us something to do. The kids pointed out the yellow fields in the distance as the views from hill tops allowed us and when we hit a cross roads they would call out which direction to turn.

We finally found a nice little secluded field with no homes in view and no fences surrounding it. We made sure to tread carefully and be respectful as we ventured a step or two only into the field to snap a few pictures. The high morning sun made it difficult to get good pictures and while the children squinted and willed their eyes towards the camera I snapped away like a mad lady. Out of the gazillion photo's I took, we managed a few keepers, and drove home with grateful hearts and a fresh perspective.
When we arrived home one of the boys threw his arms around me and said, "This is a happy morning, isn't it mom? I'm having a good day." I hugged him back and smiled. While I hadn't quite forgotten the chaos of the morning, he had already let go of those emotions and moved on to a happier place. There's always so much to learn from children, like how they live in the present and soak up all of the good in each day.

Sometimes as adults we get in too much of a hurry and we forget to slow down and savor the present. We get so wrapped up on the stresses of life that we don't notice the toddler giggling while an orange is being peeled in front of him. Or the water melon juice dripping off a preschoolers chin and elbows as he grins with sheer delight at the taste. I want so badly to always remember the little boy who walks into the kitchen first thing each morning and wraps his arms around me before sitting down to breakfast. The little boy who refuses to smile and look at the camera and instead makes goofy faces. These are the little things that make life worth while and ease the pain during difficult times.

These littles of mine are soaking up Summer in all it's glory and enjoying each day to the fullest. We haven't done anything spectacular, but every little thing we have done has meant so much to them. They have so enjoyed their friends, jumping on trampolines with soap and water, adventuring in the mountains, hitting up the spray park, and biking around town. It doesn't seem like much, but to them, it's everything.

The other day as we stood in line at Coscto a sweet lady who had been
behind us watching the boys poke each other, the toddler squeal to be free, and one child climb in and out of the bottom of the cart for quite some time said, "You seem way too relaxed to have
five kids!" I smiled and laughed a little as the kids helped me begin
unloading the groceries, "I guess I've been doing this for a while..."
We made small talk for the next few minutes until it was time to pay and
then we bid farewell. I've thought a lot about that moment though, and
just how much I've learned in the last nine years. It's changed the way
I've responded to things lately. I've made a conscious effort to be more
light hearted, to laugh more, and to be more present. I loved when Fin looked wide-eyed and confused as I giggled uncontrollably at a new library book I'd read him before bed. "Why you laughin' so much, Mom?" he asked. "Because I'm happy!" Sometimes all we need is a fresh perspective and a tiny reminder about what's really important.