Six Months

Dear Mr. Finnegan,

Today you are six months old! That's half a year! I can hardly believe it! You are such a mellow baby and bring so much joy to our little family. Your siblings absolutely adore you and you are doted on all day long. They bring you toys when you cry, hold you while I do stuff and they kiss you all day long. I love that the hugs and kisses haven't worn off much since we brought you home. You are still the first person Hyrum likes to see in the morning. You are such a happy guy and love to laugh! When the big kids are laughing, you start laughing too and it's the sweetest thing to watch. You really thrive off our energy and giggles and feel so much joy when you are around those who love you most! You have a tooth still barely poking through. You have tasted peaches, pears, apple sauce, bananas and baby cereal. We are still taking it easy on the solids and letting your tummy get used to them bit by bit. You are sitting and wiggling around and the kids are so excited for you to learn how to crawl. So far you are just attempting to get your knees under you and trying to pull your tummy off the ground. You can rotate in a circle on your tummy and love to roll around more now. It's so fun watching you learn and explore!

This week we shared a sweet little moment during a midnight snuggle session. You have been having trouble sleeping lately and wake often for a quick cuddle or burp. Usually you are still half asleep but this time when I arrived at the side of your crib your eyes were open wide. I scooped you up and brought your cheek close to mine. You grabbed my curly hair with your right hand and wrapped your left arm around my neck. We stood there for a good five minutes, swaying back and forth and watching the streetlights flicker through the curtains. When you were finally asleep I pressed my lips to your cheek for one last kiss and gently set you in the crib. I went back to my bed and smiled as I looked at the clock. For once the time wasn't important. I was glad to feel so awake and to be so present in that moment. The details from that short time have stuck with me and given me the extra boost I needed to carry on through these long nights with you.

You have turned into quite the chunkster and I love every single one of your rolls and your double chin. This month brings a lot of exciting mile stones and I'm so excited to share them with you!

Love, Mom

Friday Afternoon

Oh to be a kid again.

The Love of Reading

Today we spent the afternoon at our new library. Joseph has been begging me to go for weeks now and we needed an outing today. After lunch we all got our shoes on and took the short drive. 

I love that Camilla is really catching on to reading. It was fun to watch her read to her little brother on the green space in the corner.

 Joseph was totally happy to hang out on the "puters" all afternoon playing games with the special headphones. It was pretty cute!

 While we were there they had family story time and a craft! I jumped in to check on these two every couple of minutes and could keep an eye on Joe (who wouldn't leave the computer) through the bookcases. 

They read some stories about weasels and did a fun "pop goes the weasel" craft. We all enjoyed getting out of the house and it was relatively stress free. Finley slept in the carrier and everyone else was quietly occupied with their crafting and learning and playing. We will definitely be back here on our next rainy day!

Where to Start

Life is kicking my butt lately. I'm having a hard time jumping on here to write. Hopefully someone out there can relate to the fact that I have had the same load of laundry sitting on my bed waiting to be folded for three days now. When bedtime rolls around I carefully place it on the floor and after I've made my bed in the morning, I put it back on my bed with the intention of folding it up. The bags under my eyes just keep getting bigger and blacker (I know that's not a word). Finley's hitting some milestones (sitting up, crawling, teething), I've had to change the sheets for a bed wetter a few times this week, and Joe always needs his sippy refilled at approximately 5:00am. Being so tired and emotionally drained has left me feeling quite lifeless on the best of days. I think I am also becoming a bit of a hermit. But here are a few gems that have helped me get through these past few weeks.

When Joseph finished eating one day he said, "Mom, my body's full." I responded, "Oh, your belly?" He quickly corrected me, "No, my BOOOODDDY."

Camilla's honesty always makes me chuckle. When I was tucking her in one night she said, "Your hair smells better than your breath."

While shopping at Superstore the kids found some sunglasses and begged me to buy them. I agreed and as we walked around the store Camilla put on her new glasses and stated, "There, now I won't get so distracted by all of these bright, beautiful dresses!" That girl is a shopper for sure!

And one day at snack time Camilla exclaimed, "Goldfish, granola bars AND water? This is going to be a scrumptious day!" 

Finley has pretty well mastered sitting! It's so fun to see him playing with the kids now. I think he likes his new angle on life.

FIFA World Cup

Last night the Mr. and I took in the FIFA World Cup with some friends. The boys had been out golfing in the afternoon so they just met us there. We had an awful time finding parking and by the time we did we got to walk to the game in the pouring rain while the sky rumbled above. Finley snuggled in close and fell asleep while the rain fell. Jessica and I avoided puddles only to be splashed by passing cars. Eventually we gave up on keeping our feet dry and trucked along down the sidewalk. We arrived at the stadium just as the rain started to let up. The game had been delayed because of lightening so we only missed the first four minutes. We were soggy, but still in good spirits!

I adore this guy. He is my best friend. It was so great to take in the game with him. 

The wave went around a few times and I caught part of it the second time. Hard to see in the picture. The energy was amazing! I've never heard people cheer so loud! Finley surprisingly slept through the first half despite the noise.

When he did finally wake up, he spent his time smiling at the group behind us and hanging out with Daddy. 

The game ended in a 0-0 tie, but it was still fun to watch and cheer. Soccer is a little more interesting in real life than it is on the TV.

Thanks for the fun night friends!

Hanging Out

The sprinkler, homemade popsicles (loaded with spinach), and a sunny day....

Necessities of Motherhood

Today I have been pondering a few of the necessities of motherhood.

Patience for the endless laundry, piles of dishes, crummy floors, and long tantrums.

Understanding for when the two year old helps himself to the bowl of grapes in the fridge and accidently spills them all over the kitchen.

A sense of humor for the little boy who excitedly jumps for joy with a full cup of juice in his hand at my compliance to let him pour his sisters juice.

Empathy to see the world through my children's eyes.

Sunday Snooze

So peaceful.

Soccer Tournament

 This weekend we watched our kids in their very first ever sports tournament. The location was great and there were tons of little people playing on all of the different fields. We started off our day watching Camilla play her little heart out.

She's come such a long way since her first day and I love her enthusiasm on the field. She is one of the smallest on her team, but well loved by her team mates. It was fun watching her warm up with a small group of friends she made on the team as they took turns trying to score on each other. It was a lot of fun! 

The boys were super well behaved while we watched! They are pretty used to soccer now and as long as they have a hill to play on or some green space to run they are more than happy. I love watching the two of them hang out and become closer friends.

Right after Camilla's game we walked across to the other field and watched Hyrum. They were pretty short players and had hardly any subs, so this guy ran the entire time.

It's been great watching him learn and grow! He scored a goal and told me it was for Camilla. He is absolutely the sweetest kid. Any time another player fell down on the field, Hyrum made sure to stop and help them up even if it meant missing out on the ball or a potential goal. 

Uncle Arland and Auntie Naomi joined us for the morning! The kids were sure happy to see them! Most of these pics are courtesy of Auntie Naomi who kindly stole my camera while I bounced Finley to sleep in the carrier. It was a great morning!

Busy Days

The days are flying by and my kids are growing before my eyes! The other morning at the park I watched Joseph navigate the playground, daring new heights and trying new things and it dawned on me how big he is getting! He hardly requires supervision and it's weird to just sit back and watch him climb and explore. He pretty much runs everywhere we go and loves every minute! When we pulled into the garage after our morning at the spray park I started dancing to a favorite song and from the back seat I heard Joseph go, "Mom, you CA-RAZY!" I laughed right out loud. His expressions these days crack me right up.

We are a month into soccer and I'm kind of dreading the last half. Three days a week is almost too much! Last night I stood on the sidelines keeping Finley happy in the carrier while enduring sass from a three year old who thought it was fun to pester his brother until he screamed. To top it all off, my flip flop broke.  Even though it's silly, I stood there with tears stinging my eyes wishing that soccer was over all ready! But then Camilla scored a goal, flashed me her proudest grin, and I remembered why I decided to do this in the first place. I love seeing my kids learning, gaining confidence, and enjoying the outdoors. 

I am looking forward to the Summer months where my calendar is mostly blank (aside from a few weekend weddings), and the days are care-free. It is during these days where we enjoy long afternoons exploring outdoors, playing in the sprinkler in the backyard, checking out our favorite parks, enjoying outdoor picnics, and devouring fresh garden goods.

Spring cleaning has almost come to a close. I just finished washing the windows this afternoon and I can't believe how much brighter the front room seems now. That was probably my biggest accomplishment today and I'm trying to be okay with that. Sometimes when I look around the house in the evening at the piles of dishes, the scattered markers and paper clippings on the kitchen table, and the floor dotted with toys, socks, and crumbs, I have a really hard time not feeling discouraged. My doctor called the other night with my blood test results and my thyroid is acting up again. Possible side effects include fatigue, brain fog, and depression. Every day I struggle to muster up the energy to fulfill my role as a mother with happiness and grace.

The day always seems to end in chaos as soon as dinner is finished. I shuffle the kids through baths, chase them into their jammies, make sure everyone pees, and coax them to brush their teeth and floss. There are moments where almost all of them are crying for my attention at once, wanting my help and then refusing it when I give it, and I'm sure I'm going to lose it on someone. But if I hold my breath for just a few minutes longer, we make it through family prayers, songs, and back rubs and before I know it the house is silent, and I breath a sigh of relief. If Mr. Stannix is home we hang out, if he's not I fold laundry on our bed as I watch the sun go down and do a quick tidy on the kitchen. Then, as I check on my sleeping babies I suddenly remember why I love them so much and all of the heartache from the day is forgotten.